Lately I haven't been blogging, not because I've been too busy or don't have the time. The main reason is because my mind and body just hasn't had the energy to fuel whatever it is I want to get done. Lately, I just haven't had an aura of motivation or drive. Maybe it's because I am what you call a 'lost' or 'confused' soul, and I will admit it. If you were to ask my shadow or 'guardian angel' to describe how I am, they will tell you I'm a person that cannot be explained in the right manner, the direction I am taking has too many detours and delays. I'm not delusional or an idiot and i'm not trying to lower myself as a person, I'm just trying to be honest with myself. No wonder why people like to lie...being honest or exposing the truth can be a bit of a whirlwind. But the whirlwind of truth has taken me to many different states of mind, maybe I do like this confusing life of mine because I make it that way. Series of events that have occurred in my life would be so inconsiderately passive and with that effecting my thoughts and actions it all results to building my foundation as growing up. The ground which I am standing on right now may not be solid, but just like any other imperfect roads and concrete in this realistic world, there are cracks, and bumps, and even holes. Maybe my ground has more of those imperfect traits then others, and yet mine may have less. Back and forth, is what it feels like, the 'pendulum swing' as what one of my teachers would describe the history of life, our lives are subject to restoring force due to gravity and back to the equilibrium position, a time for one complete cycle, a left swing, then to the right. Steadiness and consistency can only last so long, changes and extrication always remains within this world. At least that's how I've experienced my living existence in this life, the only preparation we must get ready for is what's next?
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